Who knew change would be this tough?
I thought that life would get better-
If I followed the rules down to the letter.
The pain in my heart I cannot explain. . .
Making it difficult to keep myself sane.
Wishing for death, yet wanting live-
Hating myself, but wanting to forgive. . .
Forgive myself and those that have hurt me-
Without forgiveness I can’t have true recovery.
To my friends and family, I humbly apologize-
And I hope that someday you will all recognize. . .
A change in my actions as well as my heart-
And possibly allow me another fresh start.
Only an addict can understand addiction’s hold-
But I’ve played all my cards and it’s time to fold.
So, I’m laying it all out, the truth’s on the table-
I’m an addict, accept me if you are able.